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April26201211:14 i miss you babe. Im so sad;(((((((

April 11 12:35 am-Be safe baby… Lord pls watch over my baby Jean. Keep him safe in every battle that will come his way. Pls Lord God save us all from these troubles. Touch the heart and mind of the people behind this problems. Let them share peace not war… Lord we put all our self into your hands, may you keep us safe in your love and guidance. Pls Lord keep my baby safe from harm. Pls be with us Lord in every step of the way. Thank you so much Lord for your undying love and support to us.

April62013-past 7 pm my baby surprised me!!! Hes back and i missed him a lot. Thanks babe for coming even though your tired and even if its raining. Love u babe and i love the moment we had in my bed. Beds not empty no more!!!

April062013-first saturday without my baby in my bed!! I soo miss him. Go home babe i wanna hug and kiss you. I love u soooo much baby ko. I love you Jean Annoual, cant wait to be with you again.

March 24,2013-Thank you Lord for giving me such a wonderful man. I feel so happy and complete when im with him. You really answered my prayer when i asked for someone who will love me the way i want to be loved and who i love so much. I still have one more prayer Lord that we might live happily ever after. I know it sounded like a fairy tale but when i asked for someone from You it was because i wanted to be happy and praying to live happily ever after is not impossible. I love you so much Jean Annoual, hope you can feel that.

March 3, 2013- cant forget this day!!! I just found that he’s cheating on me also. For the 2nd time in my life, from the 2nd man that i have put my trust and too much affection, its really hurting me…. If only i can just run away and leave all the pain behind but i cant i have my mother that i need to support. Cant afford to loose this job cause i have obligations. Why is it so hard to be happy???? Thats all i want for my life, happiness. I want a good life for my mother thats y im working hard but i never dreamed of a luxurious life for myself. I just wanna be happy. Lord sana po kahit andami kong nagawang mali sa buhay ko pagbigyan nyo namn po akong makahanap ng totoong taong magpapasaya sa buhay ko.

Minsan naman sana maramdaman nyong kailangan ko na rin. Di ko na dapat pang sabihin yun. Kasi ang usapan ay usapan at sana tumupad kayo. Nakakapagod na kasi mag antay sa wala ako tuloy ang nagmumukhang kawawa. Hay naku bakit kasi may mga taong walang pagpapapahalaga sa tiwalang binibigay ng kapwa sa kanila.

Ngparamdam ulit eh kaya ndi ko na napigilan back to each others arm na kmi. Sana nmn mapanindigan ko sya, yung di ko kakahiya. Yung pangforever na if possible. Yung isa sa sagot ni Lord sa mrami kong prayers sa knya…..

Ganto pla pkiramdam ng iniiwanan. Sobrang sakit tagal nya ng wala sakin pero ngyon lng ng sink in. Tpos nung my dumating na bgo tinanggap ko agad pero dahil sobrang mhal ko pa yung umalis iniwan ko after 3 days yung mbuting taong dumating. Pinilit nyang iwork out yung sitwasyon, khit ano pa yung conditions na ilatag ko ok lng daw pero ng insist ako na wag na lng. Ndi ko msabing di pa ganun ka intense yung nararamdaman ko sa knya pero meron nmn khit papano. Sa haba haba ng pilitan siguro ngsawa sya kasi ayoko na tlga. Tinigilan nya na ko di nya na ko pinilit pero bakit ganun kung kelan wala na tsaka ko namimiss. Di ko na alm gagawin ko. Ang gago gago ko kasi eh!!!

When you get too comfortable u tend to forget the “wall” that u need to maintain when dealing with people. I learned an important lesson last night. Tanya012913amofchr